"It aint really bout that kind of thing at all. Its not about who does it, who done it, or did it to who. Dont matter if the both of you lose. Its really not bout nothing, accept for me and you"
- babyface
it's 5.40am and i'm still awake. i'm a mess. i googled "top 10 saddest songs" and on the list, my favourites are:
- winner takes it all - abba
- my immortal - evanescence
- confession of a broken heart - lindsay lohan
god, i don't have a life. for the past 2 months i've devoted my days and nights to my university assignments, was a good distraction. however, it has come to a point where it expires and all the thoughts are running wild again and memories flashes, it's beyond control.
i don't believe in happy endings since i was 15. the word 'forever' disappear from my vocab when i was 16. now, i am selfish because i put myself before others.
i was doing my laundry yesterday and saw a shirt, bought it around october i guess, a 'guns n roses' tshirt from a bazaar at mist.
what can i say? you're my immortal. you'll never die. you will forever haunt me. in both, bad and good, ways. and currently, i am listening to noverber rain, by the band. i guess i just love to make myself miserable for no reasons, eh? that's me, that's something no one can change.
"i'll just end up walking in the cold november rain"
- guns n' roses
i just realized that i bought that shirt on OCTOBER and im listening to NOVEMBER rain -____-
i can't sleep. seriously can't sleep. i don't think i have insomnia, I AM INSOMNIA ITSELF! this is bad, real bad. my attendance last two semesters was fucked, i was lucky i didn't get barred. i really need a cure. doctor said it's not physical, it's psychological. am i a psycho? and that reminds me, people misuse the term 'psycho'. psycho means the science that deals with mental processes or some shit, and logos, derived from some language, mean the study of. so psychology is, go figure.
this is not good. my thoughts are never ending and it jumps from one topic to another.
fullstop,xoxo.
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