All The Lies And Drama

He's A Keeper!

2010-12-07T08:02:00.000+08:00

It's 8.02am and I am still up, sleep deprived as hell. I've got so many things on my mind right now but one thing for sure, the thought of him keeps me company and is enough to make me smile :)

Oh hello blogspot! We meet again!

I am only doing this because stupid Tumblr is down, no one interesting is on FB nor MSN. So yeaaaa, I am bored to tears.

MMMMALIK Faizan!

I love my man, yep, he's the one! :D

It's my midterm break and i chose to bury myself in Cyborejaya. Went back home and there's no one around and nothing to do. Might as well be here and TRY (fucking hard) to open up some notes and books. I have 3 papers to sit for next week. It's annoying, I know. ZZZZ FML (-___-)t

My darling, sweet darling baby boy, he's gonna be away for a few days for his trip and I am going to miss him. ALOT. But oh well, by Friday, my cousins will be around and I shall surround myself with family and good food. How lovely is that? :D

How to overcome this sleeping problem?

I FEEL SO FUCKING RESTLESS!

Damn you to hell Tumblr!

"we'll be back shortly" & "just a minute" my ass lah dah dua hari aku bosan nak mati duduk rumah macam bodoh tunggu kau babi betul la kimak >=(

Hmmmm, gonna go out for a jog. NEED. FRESH. AIR. DESPERATELY. NOT! HAHAHAHA that's bullshit I'm gonna try really hard to sleep now. I hope I wake up just in time for McD Lunch ;)

Like A Little Bitch

2010-10-23T05:29:00.002+08:00

Apparently you're a boy and you love talking behind my back.

I'm tired of keeping things to myself, hide my feelings and being all secretive and shit JUST TO NOT OFFEND PEOPLE. Fuck that, I have my own life and I'm gonna do whatever that makes me happy, YES, I'M SELFISH LIKE THIS. Sorry but I have no time for your issues. Sincerely apologize, truly deeply sorry, but this is too much.

FUCK THAT SHIT

"Inside I'm a mess by someone before."

Yes I was, WAS, I am fine now. In fact, I'm doing great I'm on top of the world I'm so fucking high and I didn't even smoke nothing! That's how awesome I am (Y) All thanks to my great friends, my support system, and that one man :)

AHHHHHHHHHH!

*inhale-exhale-inhale-exhale*

Up there, I was writing in foul mood HAHA SORRAAAAYHHHHH!

I met a guy, well, we've known each other for quite some time la kan but, hmm hahahah. So there's this guy. I swear to god he's everything that you'd wish for in a man AND I AM NOT EXAGGERATING! Shit, I wanted to write down everything, every little details, every single reason why I'm head over heels, but then again, hmmmm. This time around, I'm gonna keep this to myself HEHEH Mengundangnya Hani cerita halfway macam babi, too bad lehh HEHEHEHEHEHHEH!

To conclude;

I HATE BITCHES

I LOVE MY MAN

AND MY FRIENDS

p/s: DEGREE SUCK COCK, BIG TIME! STUPID POLICIES!

Comfort Me

2010-10-17T03:01:00.002+08:00

Hello world, it's me! HANI (Y)

Soooo, you wanna know what's new?

THIS!

HAHAHAHAH HEHEHHEHEH

show off gila babi -.-'

Anywaaaaay, this month has been great so far. I love October ♥ Perhaps it's because I've found a reason to smile more lately, perhaps it's a certain someone. PERHAPS. I ain't gonna go into details, hell no! HEHE

Hmm, truth be told. I'm so used to being in a relationship and this whole singlehood shit is freaking me out. No judgement please, but the longest time I've been single was a month. A fucking month. Now, it has been almost 3 months, like whoah! Impressive Hani, SALUTE! :O

I wanted to post some pictures, loads of em' actually, But somehow, along the way, somehow, I DAH MALAS AH HAHAHAHA So imma just let it be this way, plain, simple hehe.

I'm A Mess By Someone Before

2010-09-19T08:44:00.000+08:00

It hurts remembering how it felt to shut down.

I need more luck, and perhaps some faith. The moment i feel like it's not gonna work, I'll back off. Every single time. I'm just too scared to take chances with my heart again. It's just depressing, the fact that I don't know what coulda happen if I took those chances. I have to blame it on those men who walks in and out of my life so easily.

So i might have found a reason to smile more lately, it's nice, this feeling. But being the pessimist that i am, i might be sabotaging my own happiness. Nicely done! -___-

"Let me open up and start again..."

I think it's safe to say that things are better now compared to weeks back. I was a total mess but I'm cleaning it one at a time. It hurts much less now, nevertheless, it still does. I could use some time to process the whole thing and let it pass. I need to understand better, understand how i got myself here from there. Time. That's what i need.

Anyway, enough with the emotions. Exam starts on 21st and I am just too relaxed that it's not gonna bring me any good. Shall go study with the boys tonight! 5 hours at least! I need good results, my mom deserves to smile and be proud. I owe that to her. For everything that she's done for me I have to at least make her smile :)

I love you, mother.

Oh before i stop, I have to tell the whole world what I found out today! There's an island called Pulau Babi Besar HAHAHAHHAHAH OMG OMG OMG my mind was blown I can still laugh about it after few hours of knowing. Big Pig Island ;) Okay, maybe it's nothing new, but it is to me! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE

Here's some random pictures ;)

xoxo

What It Feels To Shut Down

2010-09-16T07:03:00.000+08:00

I wonder if anyone misses me at all, well, I don’t miss anyone right now. I don’t miss no man, don’t want no man, don’t need no man. Who knew I am capable of all these. No I ain’t got no man, but I ain’t alone.

I sleep well, though the timing is a little off. I eat just fine. My brain is still functioning. But my heart does nothing but pumps up blood. And I like it this way.

I’m not broken. Promise you I’m not. At least not right now.

Happy Eid Mubarak. My ass. Mine sucked big time, how’s yours? Oh wait, don’t you try to rub it in my face. I spent the first day with some cousins in Ipoh, and off to KL later that night. Drove all the way, alone. Spent the next few days, well, alone.

I spent few days in Damansara. It was nice and i love it. I had the house all to myself, got my car, got my friends just a few doors down. Been catching up with some good old friends :)

So, here are some photos! :D

fuckdrunkassfacehaha

too lazy to upload everything. so yea, xoxo!

Stay If You Wanna Play

2010-08-27T18:54:00.002+08:00

Hello world. It has been way too long, eh? :)

just some random photos heheh (Y)

I'm in ipoh! Hehehe this place is like an escape. I don't have to see any unwanted faces, don't have to deal with no shit. And everytime i'm here, i'll never go out of the house. Like a bird feeling all comfortable in its nest. BUT, stupid cousins are just so annoying they get on my nerves each time they open their mouth.

The first thing my cousin said to me when i arrived was, "eh hani, buat apa kat ipoh ni? mana wanteh (my mum)? dia tak balik sekali?" zzzzz bangang ke apa? they've been divorce for like 5 years and still my stupid cousin couldn't understand the fact that she's not gonna come here no more. Rub it in my face much?

I really need a break, a breather, an escape, whatever you may call it. I am so sick and tired. Too much things going on right now and it's not easy :(

Daddy is moving to Kuching right after raya. I'm reaaaaally sad. I'm gonna miss him. Most probably i'll be spending my semester break there.

I've been coughing like a motherfucker. My throat is so dry! The doctor start me up on some strong drugs and now i'm high all the time zzzz. This doesn't sound right at all. Gonna hit gleneagles soon for a check up. Scary shit they're gonna put all kind of tubes down my throat and scan everything. Mati la :O

This is the part where i start to pour everything out;

I'm a total mess. Life is gonna give you shit, if you don't fight back, it's gonna suck you in and break you down. I believe that's how it goes. I've been through fuck loads of things and trust me, some of it are just down right unimaginable shit.

Please understand that it was just infatuation. Get over yourself and stop manipulating my mind, trying to make it seems like i'm the one to blame. You know what you did and don't ever think i know so little.

Few days back, my head completely shut down on me and i was left with this indecisive and weak heart. That's how i lost way. Then i turned to him, he's like Lucifer himself. That's how i lost myself. I just went against the grain.

Let the truth be told;

I've never felt so low in my life. Degraded. No one in particular to be blamed. It all happen when all the dramas and lies sum up together. Promised myself never to go down that road, but i did anyway. Now i can never get back to the place i was. I've let myself down so many times. I'm not capable of learning, keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again. It has come to the point where my eyes can barely see what's in front of me.

I never had no luck. 2 years of heartache. I give up on my heart. There's no point putting myself out there again when i know it always end with tears.

Well, I've got some pretty awesome friends. They're like my support system. I know i could turn to them whenever. They're my diamonds and i'm gonna treasure it ;)

xx.

I Never Planned To Carry Your Burdens

2010-08-07T10:57:00.003+08:00

Laying on my back became my only escape

Hello world, been awhile. My life is fucking with me and I don't like it. Convofest screwed me upside down. That was alright though. Had tonnes of fun. Sad, it ended. We still see each other though, the committees (Y)

Today will be the last event, and hopefully, a successful one!

Battle of the bands. With more than 15 bands, and a guest artist. We are so cool man i swear! Hahaha. Hmm, my other friends think that convofest has sucked me in. Chill, nothing permanent dudes :)

managed to spare some time with the good old crazy friends :)

sorry, didn't take any photos of the others hehehe babi jiman

The boss, the PA and the bodyguard (Y)

and everyone thinks im that emo girl -.-'

we had dinner after the 4 days of suffering :)

This is nice, i like it this way.

But

Sooner or later, one will get hurt and both will lose.

Fuck me

Cause We Got That Dough

2010-07-28T06:50:00.000+08:00

I have been great, thanks for asking haha.

It has been a long week for me, very!

Bakita on Saturday, tried to surprise Ayen but failed haha. Meeko, Jiman, Sarot, Bean and myself celebrated his birthday there with cupcakes. Was suppose to meet my Damansara friends for Lixian's birthday but I was late :(

Happy 19th birthday Lixian and Azreen!

And on Sunday, headed to Reggae with Nomey hehehe.

This week I've got; comp app presentation and labtest, human dev presentation, midterm exam (probability and stats), aaaand of course, CONVOFEST! been spending hours at the SRC room helping out with the coupons, banners, and evrything. I feel so useful hahah. You see, I'm the type of person who would rather sleep and eat than doing any physical movements hehehe

Anywayyyyyyy, here are some of the events on convofest!

Well, there's more. I don't know where the flyers are HAHA -.-'

haunted mansion

LAN games

fashion show

bazaar (Y)

car show

even upin & ipin will be there hehe

Blah blah blah I need to sleep I feel so dead right now.

Goodnight :)

Fairytale Much

2010-07-20T05:15:00.000+08:00

i don't date liars. i know what they're capable of, lying. i'd never take risks of getting hurt. built a wall around myself, to protect myself. i'd never lie to someone who matters.

learnt that from some people.

there was a story, read it somewhere, perhaps somewhere in google.
long story short:

there was a couple. divorced twice, was still trying their best. years later things didn't work out, settled with 'irreconcilable differences' and divorced for the third and final time. the first 'red light', the cause of these differences was, both lied both cheated and both suffered. one off to another guy. one off to date many girls. the girl, is now a second wife to a guy with 2 kids. in denial and supposedly happy. the guy, still dating multiple girls. empty, alone, and supposedly happy too.

conclusion, fuck you.

Rude Boy

2010-07-17T19:34:00.000+08:00

i miss my cat :(

haha muka sial

i am so done with my P license

but imma keep the sticker in case bby drives my car

zzz i'm in cyber

was back in KL but mum was out all the time so i decided to come back to cyber. at least here, i have nomey in the house, and ikki, dee and wan in campus :)

last week was papa sofi's birthday. aww, happy birthday! haha. and so, he's going into a 'short retirement' before he continue to work elsewhere i dont know where. i heard he got a job as a deputy dean. good for you (Y)

the family is moving to cheras :(

my bby so far. hmm, well, i could see him everyday on weekends in cyber. but semester breaks, harapan ah zz.

this coming week would be week 7, according to our academic calender. so my business has to start by this week (management class). so lazy to sell things for weeks -_- and PCA survey has to be done too. and our 'movie premier' hahaha. i'll upload the 15mins video presentation on youtube or something after the so called premier :)

tired ass.

sleep now, byeeee :D

Endless

2010-07-11T20:11:00.000+08:00

Just take my hand, fall in love with me again. Let’s runaway to the place where love first found us.

- runaway, bruno mars (Y)

My dad came back to Damansara last weekend. Spent some time with him, we talked and talked. He kinda guided me with my choices of majors. The foundation to beta online registration is until the 17^th, and I’ve narrowed down my choices to two majors (Y) still considering both, listing down the pros and cons, job prospects, etc.

Daddy got a job in Sarawak! Good for him, but I don’t know. SARAWAK KOT! He wanted to bring me there and live with him. Pursue my degree in Curtin and all. I’m not sure if that’s what I want and I’m tired of doing things that I don’t love. He said I can still do my degree in MMU if I don’t want to move there. He’ll buy my flight tickets every month, but, HAIHHHHHH!

Oh and daddy gave me something so priceless, my grandma’s ring. She has been gone for 9 years. Now, I have something to remind me of her. She’s very dear to me. She was always there for me when I was small. She’d come all the way from Perak to Damansara to be with me for a few weeks in a year. Yeah, we did visit her often. I love her so much. She’s the best, and I miss her. May God bless her soul ;)

I’m not giving up on us (Y)

College is fucked up. Why do we always have to do the assignments in groups? And why must the lecturer assign the stupid international students to be in the groups? Most of them are lazy, annoying, hot-tempered, and can’t even speak proper English -_____- When they don’t do their work and we report it to the lecturers, they’ll go ballistic and say those pointless profanities. Sheeesh man! Well it’s not THEY or THEM, just one person in particular. Rozitalab pukimak babi. Come and read this, I bet you don’t even understand. STUPIDDUMBFUCK!

I heard news from a friend about another friend. Good news, but my heart sunk down to my stomach I don’t know why. So I guess the day has finally arrived and I have to face the facts. Good luck, Hani!

You Were In All My Dreams

2010-07-06T02:43:00.000+08:00

“Kiss my lips, touch my hands, and give me a second chance.”

– adore you

Life is so unpredictable. Love is hard. Ups and downs, and all those shit. People yearn for stability. No bumpy roads, no rocky journey. Is stability a good thing? I’ve had one. Safe, secured, paranoia-free, relaxed relationship. Maybe, it didn’t go quite right because that’s not what I really want. What about passion and romance? No fireworks? No sparks? No drama? I couldn’t live without those things. I just don’t know my heart no more. I can’t figure out what I need and what I want. It’s like this, it’s like that. It’s just so confusing and this confusion is hurting others. I’ve lost myself completely. Will I ever get back to being myself again? I don’t know. Only time will tell and I hope it gets better.

"Brick by brick. I am breaking through these walls. Between you and me, I'm not giving up on us."

- katy perry, brick by brick.

bubu my temporary cat :)

went to Dengkil to fix my car with bby & liyl

I just got back from KLIA. Me and my Human Dev. group went there to shoot the video for our movie presentaion. which is due next week -__-

at first, Najman assigned me to be the main character's pregnant wife, running around the garden. LIKE A TROUBLED ASS. wtf -.-'

luckily, they changed the character :)

Hmm. I think my English is a little rusty :|

Have to rewrite the survey for my comp app assignment, it has to be more detailed. Finish up English's academic writing project. Continue with the shoot for Hum. Dev. Write up a new proposal for business management as we changed the product line.

God bless me (:

Only When You're Lonely

2010-07-01T16:54:00.000+08:00

Here I am again, doing things I said that I wouldn't do
It's 3AM and I'm rushing out the door to see you
Waiting, all day, but now you wanna call me
Why do you do this to me all the time?
After all the things you put me through, still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cos now i finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
- bruno mars (click heeereee!)

If this is what you think of me, you're dead wrong. There's just something so important but I can never tell. AND IT KILLS ME!

Guess what? I've got loads of assignments, it'll probably take a month to be done with everything. So YES! Everything will be out of my mind for at least a month (:

byeeee hehehehe!

I Don't Know My Heart

2010-06-28T18:16:00.000+08:00

I’m living in this regret. It pains me to see you, with so much to say but left unspoken. Never knowing what could have been if I had chosen a different path. I am not afraid to cry when it upsets me. I’d beg you but my ego gets in the way. I’ve always been so caught up with drama. The only thing I can ever do for myself is to hold on and be strong like nothing is wrong. I do have breakdowns, I am just human.

I’ve made my mistakes and see my life crashing down on me over and over again. I didn’t mean to hurt, but it happened anyway. I can’t change what’s done. All I can do now is ask you for forgiveness and give everything to make things better. I know I don’t deserve anything, but please, whatever you do please don’t hate me. I had my reasons though it wasn’t solid.

"i don't know your face no more, or feel the touch that i adore."

- we might as well be strangers, keane.

We Might As Well Be Strangers

2010-06-25T06:05:00.005+08:00

"It aint really bout that kind of thing at all. Its not about who does it, who done it, or did it to who. Dont matter if the both of you lose. Its really not bout nothing, accept for me and you"

- babyface

it's 5.40am and i'm still awake. i'm a mess. i googled "top 10 saddest songs" and on the list, my favourites are:

winner takes it all - abba
my immortal - evanescence
confession of a broken heart - lindsay lohan

god, i don't have a life. for the past 2 months i've devoted my days and nights to my university assignments, was a good distraction. however, it has come to a point where it expires and all the thoughts are running wild again and memories flashes, it's beyond control.

i don't believe in happy endings since i was 15. the word 'forever' disappear from my vocab when i was 16. now, i am selfish because i put myself before others.

i was doing my laundry yesterday and saw a shirt, bought it around october i guess, a 'guns n roses' tshirt from a bazaar at mist.

what can i say? you're my immortal. you'll never die. you will forever haunt me. in both, bad and good, ways. and currently, i am listening to noverber rain, by the band. i guess i just love to make myself miserable for no reasons, eh? that's me, that's something no one can change.

"i'll just end up walking in the cold november rain"

- guns n' roses

i just realized that i bought that shirt on OCTOBER and im listening to NOVEMBER rain -____-

i can't sleep. seriously can't sleep. i don't think i have insomnia, I AM INSOMNIA ITSELF! this is bad, real bad. my attendance last two semesters was fucked, i was lucky i didn't get barred. i really need a cure. doctor said it's not physical, it's psychological. am i a psycho? and that reminds me, people misuse the term 'psycho'. psycho means the science that deals with mental processes or some shit, and logos, derived from some language, mean the study of. so psychology is, go figure.

this is not good. my thoughts are never ending and it jumps from one topic to another.

fullstop,xoxo.

Mission: BeHappy (Completed)

2010-06-17T23:31:00.000+08:00

every four years all of a sudden i am a sleep deprived football fan :)

i am lucky

because i've got my parents' blessing in every single thing that i do

because i've got supportive and loving friends

because i have a decent home to stay near campus, so lovable

because i have too much love in my heart to hate anything or anyone

because i have a man to turn to every time the world turn its back on me

because i have a loving man to cuddle with

because i don't have to starve for anything

because i have the chance to pursue my studies

because my grades will continue to improve with all my effort

because i am able to make myself happy and proud

because i am independent

because the negativity left my life :)

i am just so lucky, and thankful for everything

life has been great.

i guess i am back to blogging haha konon dah give up, biar laaahhh! well nothing to be proud of. this won't be a routine anymore. only when i have the mood to :) oh and the pictures up there, those two girls, are my housemates. and they're sisters! :)

if naomi read this she would say;

eeeee mengundangnyalah hani ni!

i need to sleep. no class tomorrow but i don't care. my sleeping time is so fucked, i am an owl! sleep sleep sleep bye blog hello pillows! ;)

The End

2010-05-21T19:56:00.001+08:00

1 = wan = ikhwan hafidz ;p

I've been writing on this blog with this annoying url for more than a year now. Maybe it's time to put an end to it. It has been way too long for me. Blogspot is so dull anyway, nothing appealing about it. If you miss me someday, you can stalk me at my tumblr or if you wanna be friends, facebook is one way though i'd prefer meeting people off the computer screen. And if you wanna ask random questions, formspring is an alternative. I'd appreciate it more if you don't ask private questions. I mean, sure you can ask things, but there's some stuff that's only for me to know.

to conclude the whole 'story of my life', i decided to write a little something. well not that anyone care, but that aint gonna stop me ;)

i am just a girl. god made me in such way that not many could understand my thoughts and feelings. i am not complicated, but that doesn't take me nowhere near easy. life is life, up and down thick and thin, you know? i've been happy, ecstatic, sad, hurt, broken, content, jolly, loud, confused, lost, and everything in between. i'm like you, but with a different settings and plot. life is a story. well at least to me it is. i've lived for at least 19 years and i've got millions of stories to tell. i was a happy kid, contented. things changed, i grow much wiser through a handful of dramas.

i am still happy, very, especially when i've got a great man by my side. maybe you people won't see what i see in him, but the fact that i'm one of the very few people that can see it makes us special. big girls do cry, don't believe the song. but we can be really happy too. more than you can imagine.

i believe in God, i believe in karma, i believe in happy endings, i believe in love and i believe that i am blessed with wonderful things though sometimes i might have taken it for granted. i am flawed, so are you :)

i'm sorry if my words have ever hurt anyone, it's unintentional. however, i will never say sorry for my flaws. no one is perfect and this is who i am.

maybe this post is just a bunch of words that just came onto my mind, typing it without actually thinking about it, and pointless. tapi saya suka, kamu tak suka pergi mati lohhh HAHAHAH!

Flashbacks

2010-05-21T05:25:00.001+08:00

When i was much younger, i used to do these stuff go to these places. HAHA bajet tua sangat but oh well. i grow much wiser each day (or so i thought) ;)

hero gadis-gadis

It's 5.22 am and i can't sleep. exam is in 8++ hours.

macroecons -___-

go suck balls la babi stuck on chapter 3

For Everything

2010-05-19T06:45:00.002+08:00

dear lover,

thank you for loving me the way i am, thank you for accepting my flaws, thank you for being so patient, thank you for all the wonderful things that you've done, thank you for mending the broken, for the joy you bring. for any mistakes that i've done, forgive me.

sincerely,

hani jamil.

Fuck That

2010-05-13T15:03:00.001+08:00

hehehehehehe

i love my baby love baby poo baby wohoo!

baby you're the bestest! ;D

i miss you :(

currently, im at liyana's place in bukit jelutong. waiting on her to get ready and ciao to cyber. but her big butt and herself are stuck in front of her laptop. and that is how i am doomed -_-

CEPATLAH LIYANA!

i need a smoke so badly, i need to eat sangat dah ni kruk kruk the tummy, and i miss my baby poo ;(

hehehehe

xoxo

So Amazing

2010-04-27T02:23:00.000+08:00

i've been so busy lately. with all the work and assignment and classes and shits. i seriously need a breather and im planning to go on a road trip some time, really need it. been so restless, so lethargic, so annoyed and fucked busy as hell. but hmm, yea, i still manage to have loads of quality time with my baby love. i mean, with all that stress, my baby brings joy and ease everything ;)

fuck yeah lidi!

and finally, i am all 99% done with everything. no more assignments, no more project. just one last presentation. i now have 3 weeks to study, nothing but to study. good enough? oh well, procrastination is a bitch. too much distractions even in my room. there's like a laptop, which is connected to the internet, that enables me to use facebook, tumblr, twitter and many more! OMG! it is impossbile to avoid these things! how to study laaaaa?!!! HAHAHAHA mula dah hani's insane drama.

so before the drama become so very draggy and annoying, i shall wrap the post up with some random picture of yours truly, hani :)

spent the night at naomi's place last night

had nothing better to do, im so lifeless -__-

muka tak mandi 24jam hani (Y)

skexxyyyy HAHAHAHHA ;D

kissable lips much -.-'

i'm amazing, yea i'm all that

- kanye west!

hehehehe you know i love you,

xoxo.

You're My New Obsession

2010-04-16T14:03:00.000+08:00

It's a ♥ thang, it's gotta be!

Current songs in the awesome playlist;

1. billionaire - bruno mars

2. la la - LMFAO

3. nothing on you - b.o.b feat bruno mars

4. against the grain - akon feat ray lavender

5. yes - LMFAO

6. what you waiting for - mizz nina feat colby o'donis

i feel so damn awesome today, i miss home, i'm coming home! i miss daddy but he's too far away, what to do. i'll be alright. WE BE CHILLIN' BRO! :D

namun mengapa ada saja yang benci tulus cinta kita HAHA

so yea, i've been listening to some old malay songs. so what? if you dont like it, it's cool, fuck you (Y)

i am waiting for baby love to be done with his friday prayers then we're of tu kuala lumpur

18 + 1 = 19

2010-04-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

I am now 19 HAHAHA

fuck you, nothing to be proud of -.-'

i didn't really celebrate it much. had lunch with mum the day before. did a litle shopping too at curve hehe. and met elle and off to pavi, i hate pavilion i swear. full of losers and posers. fuckyougodielacibai! HAHA

and when the clock stroke 12am, baby love called me! :) he sang the 'happy birthday song' in more than 5 languages. so much effort, eh? funny though so cuteee!

and on sunday, i had lunch with uncle dearest and cousins at taman tun (Y) good food i swear! then he brought us to damansara's secret recipe for a birthday cake! HEHEHE SO HAPPY LA WEHHHH CANNOT TAHAN! :D

later on, off to taman tun again to meet baby esther, ishnee boo, ariff and chee ho. i love my friends, they're all oh so lovely. good catching up with stuff, talking about crappy 'editorial cat' and all the adventures we had :) i miss my school days, not the school btw :)

and to complete the day, baby came and fetch me! he brought me to the curve and we went around the place, shopped for accessories and strawberries! hehehe i love my lidi. had dinner at The Apartment :) and he even gave me a little present. aww, baby love, i love youuu! you're the best the fucking best, super duper awesome! thank you for the sweetest memories :)

so okay, i was a little moody at first. i miss my dad :(

but baby made my day!

aww, look at him. so pretty pretty awesome! :D

hidung kembang sayang HEHEHE

grrr? -__-

and i am happy and even more deeply in love

and thank you everyone for the great birthday wishes.

Chiddy Chiddy Chidddyyyyyyy

2010-03-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

Ohh alejandro! HAHA

~~Ssup, Bitches?~~

meh tek sikit -___-

omey angaaaatttt!

bean muka nakal HAHA

muka babi hani HAHA

MMU Talentime last night, IT WAS BORING!

Felt so dead, zombie baby i swear -___-

Ciao-ed to JS for a little shisha with fellow FOM classmates :)

SHUK BELANJA, thank you thank you!

Then at around 1am, took off to Andalus with Izham and Azreen. Met Bean, Meeko, Izman and Sarah there. And the rest, didn't quite get their names since Bean sucks at intros hahaha. Basically, we just sit talk and camwhored ;)

I don't love college, tell mommy i'm sorry.

Boreville

2010-03-15T15:40:00.000+08:00

the freak that i am

mentally disturbed

jangan nak kelso sangat lah hani -.-'

fuck yoouuu!

we be chillin bro

i had to kill the time

and so i did this hehehe

I'm A Mess

2010-03-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

I am a mess, not mentally.

Just look at this! :O

All my work is done. Oh how proud I am with myself HAHA

I find comfort doing my work on the floor. It's like if I get stuck on the questions, I can just roll for a bit and sometimes i fall asleep while doing so HAHA

I'm waiting for my Lidi to call.

Bila la dia nak siap lampu DF dia tu -.-'

This week is gonna be a little stressful. With all the assignment datelines, boring presentations and midterm tests. I just hope I can get good sleep ;( Can't wait for my break!

and OHHHMYYGODDDD!

2 weeks back i went to Hard Rock Cafe for my baby Esty's performance. With the fancy named band, Once Upon A Time There Was A Sausage Named Bob. Guess what, they went for the finals last Saturday at KL Live and they won! Grand Prize Winner!!! I'm soooo proud of my cabbage! :)

Everyone's a let down,

it just depends on how far down they can go.

And in every circle of friends there's a whore

Your Lover's Revenge

2010-03-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

What can i say, eh? There are some things that are irreversible, and unfixable. There's nothing much that i can do, really. I'm no superwoman but it's okay. I am feeling very content with life. Am learning to appreciate things that i actually have. I'm done wasting my time on wishful thinking. We don't live no fairytale, sugar.

Broken trust, meaningless promises, backstabbing bitches, useless bastards, time wasted, heartache. Been there done that, it ain't pretty, but i managed.

Life's is too short too waste it on someone, too precious to give it wholly to anyone, too damn good to throw it away :)

i shall spend my life doing things that makes me happy,

if it doesn't, i'll keep on trying :)

and happy birthday naomi :)

well, it's belated, didn't have the time to update hehe

The Hurt That You've Been Through

2010-03-01T19:24:00.004+08:00

Mum has gone ballistic again, good thing i'm in Cyber now. If not, I'd be so dead HAHA! Hmm, I might have to travel back and forth from home to CyberSTUPIDjaya soon. She's doing some kinda damage control shit. Thanks for making my life shorter, heh.

confused and hurt had no choice but to cry. he's too hard to hold with heart so cold. they started asking, is it worth the while? but she didn't let go, he's her diamonds and gold.

p/s; I love you, always did, and always will.

just a random photo :)

"even the dumb ones know how to love"

And Everybody Sing It With Me Now!

2010-02-27T21:57:00.001+08:00

hello hello it's haaaannnni! hehehehe

guess what bitches?

My baby Esty had a show at Hard Rock Cafe, KL!

And guess what is the band's name? its;

once upon a time there was a sausage named bob!

HAHAHAHAHAHHA yea i know right? it's damn long!

making momma so proud,

they're through to the next round!

a round of applause!

oh and some friends came along too, thanks guys!

- izman, azreen, bean and bazil -

was there at 4pm for sound check :)

my gangsta, my babe, my Esty :)

with the retarded Jared HAHA

and them boys

(Y)

It was a great night I swear!

Oh and JC got his car keys locked in the car, how ironic, so we had to wait for a bit haha. Supper at NZ with the band and friends. And Jared sent us back home.

There was an accident though at Federal Highway, the bandmates and all. But since it's already so late, Jared sent us back first :)

Thank you for the great night,

and you guys rocked the shit outta Hard Rock! :D

I'll Be Sipping On Patron

2010-02-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

I am learning to appreciate things :)

saaaayang naomi! :)

HELLO FUCKERS! HAHAHHAH

pardon me

I AM JUST SO FUCKING HIGGHHH ON NOTHING!

HAHAHAHHA YEAAAYY HANI!

"boy you need to cool down, cause i'm way too hot.."

(perasannya lah hehe)

had a great weekend, wasn't that perfect, but yea it was awesome! :D

A ride to Putrajaya with Syai, Azzat and Amirul. I don't know the other guy's name, I'm so sorry hehe. The plan was to go to the Wow Putrajaya Festival, but it was so damn dead, so ciao-ed off to Alamanda. Supposedly for a movie, lambat sangat, bowling je lah! Hehe! And then we had dinner around 8pm at Siagol, Neocyber. I know, the names of the places are way off the hook!

(omg i'm so fucking high la, so happy ni hehe)

And then i met Naomi Yapappaaaa around 9++, and off to KL :) We were suppose to go and eat first, dah smpai Hartamas, macam mengundang je tempat tu so we headed straight to Changkat. Yeah, Reggae Bar with an empty stomach.

First, the place was dead, filled with old ladies tryna get laid, like eewww wth? HAHA but as the night goes on, more and more people are coming in. There we were, two girls, doing our own thang, pushing away all those freaks :) i love my naomi, she kept me safe. And along came a friend :) What a wonderful fella, and no, ~~i shall not elaborate~~ :)

Off to Suzi's Corner for supper. met Matt and his cousin. MasyaAllah tak reti senyap betul, mulut bercakap tak de fullstop hahaha but it was entertaining :)

I woke up at 4pm today, teman Syai and Farah at the swimming pool :)

And now, i am home :)

Imma go take a shower now, going out for dinner soon and my hair is damn oily -.-

SOOOO, YEAAAAH.

that's all for now, I LOVE YOU ALL LAHH! ;)

This Is A Disaster

2010-02-19T16:13:00.001+08:00

hani is here, again.

sad and depressed, been using tumblr and twitter and fb and everything to take my mind off it.

Love Me

2010-02-18T03:13:00.000+08:00

Just one look into your eyes

One look and I'm crying

'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one kiss and I'm alive

One kiss and I'm ready to die

'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one touch and I'm on fire

One touch and I'm crying

'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one smile and I'm wild

One smile and I'm ready to die

'Cause you're so beautiful

Messed Up

2010-02-17T17:02:00.001+08:00

flaws and all

"if that boy don't love you by now he will never ever love you.."

I'm a mess right now. Out of order, i'm torn up, i'm going down. Won't you hold me together? I'm pouring out. I need you, that's how i feel. I refuse to believe you do not think of me like I do you. If I'm right then show me come through.

I'm Gonna Touch The Sky!

2010-02-16T19:54:00.000+08:00

i am a fish, i'll keep on swimming, swimming, swimming! :D

can't tell me nothing now,

baby i know how to fly!

it's the climb! -.-'

went for a trip to morib :)

flying kites, seashells, and hot yet windy beach!

too bad my CNY break is too damn short.

next stop, Cherating, bitchesss! :D

and i love my mom, i love my dad, i love my god,

and i love my life!

It's my life imma do what i do, and if you don't like it, it's cool, fuck you!

Love Is Beautiful When's It's Not Ugly

2010-02-11T19:33:00.000+08:00

Hello people!

I am in no mood for valentines. However, i still have my soft side.

"If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me. But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible."

listen to savage garden; truly, madly, deeply.

and this piece! :)

so sweet, so cute!

xoxo.

Hani Jamil

2010-02-09T19:53:00.000+08:00

hello world :)

i am here to present the many faces of Hani.

(i ain't got nothing better to do)

muka gedik hani ;)

mengundang sangat

t-shirt caya doh hahaha

back home, i'm a lifeless bitch.

~~tampar je~~

ayu en? HAHAHA

(Y)

ju-on

si loser naik train to ipoh :D

ya allah, hani!

fosho

xoxo!

I Was Inviting Him Into My Heart

2010-02-05T13:59:00.002+08:00

Yet again Hani, what the hell is wrong with you girl?

I am tired of all this, screw you people! Thanks for making my life a living hell. Screw you!

Yadayadayada

I'm staying in Cyberia now. Finally i've got my own place. It's peaceful over here, so quiet. Very nice place, almost perfect. It's far from class though, i didn't bring along the car as it has issues with insurance and road tax and all those shits. Maybe next week, or when everything is done. The internet is finally working, and now i shall blog my heart out. it's been so long, ey?

Holiday? Sucked. Suck cock. Annoyingly boring and pathetic. Plans were cancelled and all bla bla bla. It's just a week of no classes. That's about it, i guess.

A love, a life, a lie.

You can take back your words and shove it up your ass.

I am done wishing for fairytale to happen. I guess love does not exists, at least for me. All i get is heartache. It's annoying how people can mess with your head and your heart without feeling guilty. Boys come and go, so fuck it. I am tired of love, it's just a myth.

I'm gonna keep myself content, on my own.

Oh and another thing! I find the Faculty Of Engineering building very creepy, so dark. And it's like a zoo. Everyone would be staring into the classes through the glass door. Do we look like a tiger to you? -_- (and i don't understand why our classes are in FOE, i mean, we're FOM students) -___-

Leave me in the morning, leave me broken hearted, leave me alone, leave me hanging. All you would and should do is leave. Just let me be.

hohohoholiday!

2010-01-25T19:29:00.002+08:00

such a bad timing -_-

i mean, who on earth is on a break now? end of january? besides us, the foundation students of MMU? MMU, YOU SUCK!

finished my last paper on saturday. slept off straight. too damn tired. mom called at 11pm yelling and all. you see, i told mom i would go back at 8pm. instead, i was dead asleep. she thought i went missing partying somewhere, like the old days again HAHA. mommy you're being paranoid again.

you've got a good girl in hand :)

drove back home on sunday, at 8am :O

yeah, like whoaahh!

10am, straight to taman tun. nini and zariff were having a qualification round for SUKMA '10. fencing bai ;) then mom went back home, leaving me with them. me, nini, zariff, husnul, amir and ika :) lunch at santai ttdi, then off to sunway :) i have such good friends!

now, saya di ipoh hehehehe

visiting dad and grandpa and all the relatives. as some of you have already know, my dad moved to ipoh :) i miss him very much. we're spending quality time now, messing up with grandpa hehehe. he's sick though, but it's really nice to have him around.

i love my family :)

i'm moving to cyberia end of this week!

YYEEAAAAAAYYY!!!!!!!!! ;D

PBM0035 and PEN0015

2010-01-22T20:07:00.000+08:00

i want to get over it already, hurry up!

tomorrow :) wish me luck, gonna need loads of it ;(

and after i am done with this,

HELLO IPOH! ;D

Wish Me Luck!

2010-01-18T09:51:00.000+08:00

It's exam week people! Wohoo!! -.-'

So much fun, NOT!

I am going to lock myself in the library and never come out, not until i make myself a total genius. So that means, i'll be there forever. Praise the lord.

It's gonna be one busy week i guess.

This might be my last post for this week. yes, MIGHT be LAST. God knows. I need to concentrate, focus hani focus! That is something i never fail to fail hahaha lack of concentration!

Lord i'm crapping again.

Pardon me;

i woke up at 6pm yesterday. and i had to stay up to make sure my sleeping time isnt messed up no more, since exam is very important, probably fatal haha. had a movie marathon, drove all the way back to cyber at 5am :O I KNOW RIGHT! 5am? Like OMG? hahaha i am still wide awake. went to the library, needed a place like that to make me feel guilty if i dont study. cause u see, when im in my room, i feel like going down to the cafe and eat, or watch a movie on tha laptop, or even sleep. BUT THE LIBRARAY, id feel so dead guilty if i dont read up :)

stars, they will not fade away.

just some lyrics of the song thats playing on the lappy right now. heheheheh sorry hani memang macam ni. always off topic ;) that's what i love about her!

i'm waiting for faritz to be done with his first paper now, we're going to lowyat later. fix some stuff :) i'll be heading to cyberia first, cutting my fringe yo! :D

FUCK YOU! >=)

clearly, i've been using my time to do crap -.-'

oh well

you know i love you, xoxo! ;p

Fill You With My Dreams

2010-01-15T02:43:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wish my phone is stolen or broke, so that i don't have to stare at it and wait for the calls that will never happen. i suck, but you suck harder! -.-'

if only i have a time machine. then i could watch my favourite moments over and over again. it wouldn't have to end so quick and painful now would it?

i shall warn you, it's 2am and i am not really on my best state of mind :) blogging through my ass, i am not thinking of anything. just typing things that suddenly pops in my head.

yap ah ding ; it just came up to me, just like that :)

it would be nice to have a picnic with your loved ones, flying kites, and enjoy every single second. but it would be nicer to even have a loved one :(

no more excuses, it's useless.

you changed my mind. i am tired of chasing cars. i am not gonna play hide and seek again with you, you little boy. been there done that, not a nice feeling.

tie the knot.

karma sucks; it's not even real. look at me, i don't deserve these shits.

Through the years, gonna love you more each day.

i want to ride a horse, across the meadow. i want to dive into the water and never return to land. i want to be mermaid, but with a detachable tail so that i can go to class during the ay when i put on my super artificial yet crafty legs. i want to be a lecturer so that i can torture people with assignments. i want to be che mat! :D

don't ask me why am i wanting these weird things. i'm hani. don't expect much, okay? no one knows how this brain inside my head functions.

well let's be honest,

this is impossible.

keeping things out of my mind. i don't want you to mess with my thoughts no more. manipulative son of a bitch. okay honestly, i don't really know who am i saying this to, but i don't give no fuck.

if college is life, and love is a subject, then id be a drop out student for sure ;(

kablam-dabush!

oh it's just some random quote from willow! the musical :)

make me whole again, for my heart has a hole

HAHAHA fuck la hani, stop it!

you're such a dumbass. look at me and tell me what more could you ask for? stupid pig. pissing off, id go crazy just thinking about you and the possibilities.

mengundang sangat.

exam from 21st to 23rd. now nooow, how do i get my exam slip shit? the onlinecyber shitty ain't being clear -__-

i miss you, hb3's seafood carbonara ;( it's been so long.

moving to cyberia next month. wohooo! hello single bed, single room, private toilet, aircond, water heater, decent tv, living room, comfy sofa, a freaking fridge and hello stove! smells just like home :)

i would love to talk to you in person,

but your face is just so annoying. HAHA

this should be enough for one post. we don't want too much nonsense cramped in one single freaking post now, do we?

gute nacht, bis bald.

Bold The Truth

2010-01-12T04:16:00.000+08:00

You are female

You are in high school

You dropped out of high school

You graduated within the last 5 years

You live on your own

You live within 20 minutes of your best friend

You live within 20 minutes of the last person you kissed

You live within 20 minutes of your ex

You have hugged someone in the last 48 hours

You have been to the movies within the last week

You have had 3 or more boyfriends/girlfriends just this year

You have been a designated driver

You have broken merchandise and not paid for it

You have played strip poker

You are atheist

You recycle regularly

You are a brunette

You have dated a blonde

You are friends with a redhead

You are taller than your mom

You have a checking account

You’ve written a check for less than $5

You have visited the Statue of Liberty

You have visited the Eiffel Tower

You have visited Big Ben

You have visited the Coliseum

You have visited The Great Wall of China

You have never been out of the country

You have been a waiter/waitress

You own something with a Pentagram on it

You have used a Ouija Board

You have been a witch for Halloween

You have been a zombie for Halloween

You have been a Disney character for Halloween

You don’t celebrate Halloween

You have your belly button pierced

You have your tongue pierced

You have your eyebrow pierced

You have a Monroe piercing

You have your nose pierced

You have an ankle tattoo

You have a wrist tattoo

You have a back tattoo

You have no tattoos

You have more than 5 tattoos

You straighten your hair

You have worn a dress in the last 3 days

You live somewhere that gets snow

You celebrate Hanukkah

You were at your own house last New Year’s

You were at a bar last New Year’s

You slept through last New Year’s

You have worked on Christmas Eve

You have worked on Christmas

You have been told ‘I love you’ by someone today

You slept in your own bed last night

You are dating the last person you kissed

You regret kissing the last person you kissed

You enjoyed your last kiss

You are wearing a necklace right now

You are wearing something red

You are wearing something blue

You are wearing something purple

Your phone is fully charged

Your phone number ends with an even number

You have kissed the last person you called/texted

You last called/texted a boy

You are currently listening to music

You are waiting for something

You don’t like seafood

You have eaten deer sausage

You have given a complete stranger your phone number

You have been hit on at work

You have been hit on by someone more than 20 years older than you

You have been whistled at

You were creeped out by it

You are a good speller

You are very punctual

You were dating someone in December of 2008

You are still dating that person

You have cheated on someone

You have been cheated on

You have been on a cruise ship

You are wearing something that doesn’t belong to you

You are a Pisces

You are a Leo

You are a Capricorn

You have Irish heritage

You have Polish heritage

You have Japanese heritage

You have Israeli heritage

You have German heritage

You have Portuguese heritage

You have French heritage

You have Norwegian heritage

You have Korean heritage

You were born in May

You were born in June

You were born in October

You wonder what will happen when you die

You are afraid of the dark

You write in all capital letters

You have been told you have nice handwriting

You have had a song written for you

You have had a picture drawn of you

Your phone provider is Sprint

Your phone provider is AT&T

Your phone provider is Verizon

You are wearing a watch

You are wearing flip flops

You wouldn’t date someone who smoked

You know someone with the same birthday as you

You are a morning person

You are a night owl

You slept in past 10am today

You have big plans for next weekend

You are thinking of someone right now

Your job is stressing you out

You don’t have a job

You have never had a job

You were fired from your last job

You know sign language

You made your bed today

You will usually try something at least once

You have been swimming in the last month

You are pessimistic by nature

You have taken a ballet class

You have taken karate

You have taken gymnastics

You wish on shooting stars

You wish at 11:11

Your birthday has already come this year

You have been in a relationship that lasted longer than a year

You ended your last relationship

Your ex ended your last relationship

You are over your ex

You have gone after someone you knew was bad for you

You have let someone use you

You have been in a physically abusive relationship

You are engaged

You are married

You are divorced

You have a child

You were/are a teenage mom

You were named after someone

You like your name

Your last drink was water

You have visited somewhere said to be ‘haunted’

You have skipped school just because you didn’t feel like going

You have taken medicine when you ‘feel a headache coming on’

You are self-conscious about your body

You have a hangover

You have had a Jehovah’s Witness show up at your house

You have pet fish

You live on a farm

You live in a trailer

You live in Montana

You live in South Carolina

You live in Illinois

You live in Maryland

You live in New Mexico

You have step-siblings

You are the oldest

You are adopted

You have a twin

You don’t want kids

You want more than four kids

You have a bad temper

You have made out with a complete stranger

You usually make the first move in an intimate situation

You regret losing your virginity

You lost your virginity to someone the same age as you

You lost your virginity to someone you were dating

You lost your virginity before you were sixteen

You have worked with a Kayla

You have held hands with a Marcus

You have dated a Rachel

You have kissed a David

You have ridden in a car with a Nicole

You have had class with a Patrick

You have gone out to eat with a Chloe

You know a Kyle in the military

You are related to a Julie

You have gotten drunk with a Brent

You have broken your arm

You have had to get stitches on your face

You have had an MRI

Your fingernails are painted

Your fingernails are painted black

You like to read

You like to cook

You like to draw

You can play an instrument

You keep a lot of secrets from people

You don’t think people would accept you if they really got to know you

You don’t trust people easily

You borrowed something you really need to give back to someone

You drive a car older than a 2002

You have lost a friend you never thought you would

You know a child who died of cancer

You know a teenager who died in a car wreck

You have done something illegal in the past 24 hours

You have cut your hair in the last week

You wear glasses

You have been pulled over for speeding

You love to drive with the windows down

Your favorite season is Autumn

Your favorite color is orange

Your favorite animal is a dolphin

You last rode in a car with a relative

You last rode in a car with a girl

You last rode in a car with the person you are dating

You regularly watch soap operas

You love Italian food

You love Mexican food

You love Chinese food

You can see a box of tissues from where you are

You can see your reflection in a mirror

You can see what’s on tv from where you are

Your best friend is older than you

You have to go to school/work tomorrow

You answered every question truthfully

Oh Kuala Lumpur! HAHA

2010-01-11T02:45:00.001+08:00

oldtown lagi -_-

mintak kaki :D

dia perasan dia comel HAHA

dia cuba jadi rempit

some musical play, i dont know what to call it :)

ermi riyana! woohoooo!

loner ;(

kablam-dabush!

gediknya lah -_-

comel betul HAHAHAHA

this post, gambar je. malas nak update semua benda. letih la hehe

Get Ready To Get Fucked Up!

2010-01-09T16:46:00.000+08:00

I've got to stop this shit. Stop depending too much on a mere guy to make my life perfect, cause it will never happen. Nothing is perfect.

I've got to stop dreaming the impossible. Fairy tales are fairy tales, if you get one, you'll end up hurting yourself. It will never lasts and once you wake up from your supposedly sweet dream, LIFE'S GONNA BE HELL!

I've got to get a life. I am young. Too young to settle down in boredomville. I don't wanna be like a 60 years-old woman, wake up and read the newspaper while drinking hot coffee and eating pancakes. Damn it Hani you're not even 19 yet! Go out and have fun! You were never this boring before, lord help me!

I can;t get it back, but i don't want it back. So fuck it?

Attention; writing in a foul mood ;)

Tried to settle down and look what i get? Thought it was my time but i guess not yet.

Prrrr, prrrr, prrrrrrr! *take a deep breath*

I can do much better than this.

I know it, you know it. I'm too fly!

Right now, I am at Naomi's place. Spent the night here, watching her working her ass off for her design fundamentals assignment HEHEHE!

No mommy's boy.

Where's the sparks? Where's the high? Where's the fun things in life? Imma find them and make things right. I'll take myself on an adventure, stop counting on people to make plans. Make my own, do my own. Fuck yeah!

Now, let me violate you, and I'll let you complicate me ;)

And Yet Another One

2010-01-07T03:43:00.001+08:00

I just can't believe shit repeats itself

"I gave my mind, compromise my life just to see I'd find you were trying hold me back slowly you throwing me off my track. Disappointed again.."

- Destiny's child

You didn't even say you're sorry. Laughed about it, joked about it. You can say goodbye to your sorry ass.

See i like to believe the best in people, but guess what? There's nothing good at all in them. Not even an ounce, they're pure evil. Rot in hell.

Middle finger to anyone that hate the way that i burn it up.

"Who am I, love? What am I supposed to be? One life alone. Oh, somehow it's made for me. What do I do? What can I say? It's nothing new, the choice was made.."

- Somewhere inside, julie thompson & tiesto

Understand That Nothing Was Done For Me

2010-01-04T19:38:00.001+08:00

Last name Ever, first name Greatest.

- drake, forever.

week thirteen @ MMU

= boring

can't wait to get over with the exam. first semester sucks -.-'

it's the subject man i swear!

oh and i'm moving to cyberia by the end of the month :)

ain't that sweet?

i'm heading to ipoh this coming semester break, spending the whole holiday there hehehe i love my hometown ;D there's like nothing much there, but i like it. peaceful and quiet. with good food and great people. can never ask for more :)

its 7.23pm now, no one is online ;(

oh and there's one more important thing!

Attention Izham Sofi!

You owe me a cute little kitten, you promised! HEHE

blonde/yellow with blue eyes

i'm gonna name it Bimbo :)

HEHEHEHE i can't wait! tak sabaaar lah!

HHMMMMMMMM

bosan sangat dah

so yea, take care you lovelies!

It's 2010!

2010-01-03T14:42:00.001+08:00

Hello World! I'm 19 this year!

HAHAHAHHA

NYE @ Shangrila turned out fun

with family and friends there ;)

They were having some dance called pochopocho hahaha damn cuteee! and the ladies were dancing gracefully, tuanku was singing some hawaiian song and us kids were like minding our own business at the back :)

beautiful ain't it? :)

mother

mother and her husband :)

after dinner we went across to concorde bla bla bla countdown bla bla bla damn bored bla bla bla played pool at the pub :) i suck though hehehe

yea itu dia zariff

loser of the year -.-

aaawwwww! ;D

2010!

oh yeah, that's what i like most about the party! HAHA

uncle ziani and nini :)

nini ;D

sofea. nini, zariff and haaaaani! ;D

and we're like families :)

CHOCOLATE! :D

may this year be a great one! ;)

GOD BLESS.

Everybody, It's On!

2009-12-31T08:57:00.001+08:00

"It may not mean nothing to y’all,
understand nothing was done for me,
so i don’t plan on stopping at all,
I want this shit forever man, ever man, ever man.."

- Drake, Forever.

Was planning to go to Port Dickson today, a one day trip, with them lovers. Yea yea there's nothing in PD but fuck it, better than The Curve 4 years straight for crying out loud!

Unfortunately

Cash is not something we all are loaded with -.-'

Luckily

Nini texted me. She's in Bangkok now, coming back tonight. Better still, she invited me to have dinner at Shang with everyone, then go to some chilling place in KL for the countdown. Aawww, i feel so loved! HEHEHE ;)

Truth be told

i am not really all pumped up about the whole NYE thing anymore. Apparently there's not much difference from one year to another. BUT, i'd hate to be at home when fireworks are everywhere and people are dancing to the beat.

So imma enjoy myself tonight ;)

This would most likely be my last post of '09. Been quite a great year man! May the year 2010 be a better one in every way! God bless!

PUT YOUR HANDS UP FOR '10 PEOPLE! ;)

Patron On Ice

2009-12-29T17:27:00.000+08:00

"You want it, i got it, go get it, i buy it,

tell them other broke niggas be quiet.."

I miss times like these, it has been some time now, aint it?

capsquare

mist itu kabus :)

coco banana

maisooon

7atenine

bangkok jazz

enough about clubs and late night activities :)

here comes the best part, my personal favourite.

sex goddesses

i dont know who they are, but who cares?

intriguing ;)

"i want your body need your body.." - TI, whatever you like

adriana lima

kate moss

and they say she kissed a girl ;)

she make them good boys go bad ;)

of course, everybody love secrets.

especially victoria's ;)

you know i love you blake, xoxo.

Love Comes Slowly

2009-12-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

2 months

and still counting

i love you, izham adly mohd sofi! :)

Let's Stop Pretending

2009-12-23T05:15:00.004+08:00

"You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me.."

It's never easy to put up with me.

I gave up all the fun things in life, no more adrenaline rush running through my veins. Settling down means dying slowly inside.

One little confused brat, i am.

I need you to push it right back. Do not agree on everything, stop nodding your head. Take control! I am not right all the time, argue with me when I am wrong. Don't leave me in the dark. Don't take me out everywhere, just somewhere.

I do not know how else to put these thoughts into words.

God bless your soul.

Hopefully The Hate Subsides

2009-12-21T17:37:00.001+08:00

life could be such a bore, and sometimes, it left me no choice but to play around with the webbie :)

s@y3rW g3wDikZ HAHAHHA

fuck you

nerdy asshole :)

heheheheheh

back home

rindu alien ;)

VIPS! hehehe ;p

i am so done with my assignments :)

talking about being relieved?

it's like the weigh on my shoulder is gone, GONE! i love this feeling. am so relaxed. no stress, am so fly hommie ;)

however,

there is another one -_-

accounting principle, you whore! i just hate the subject. i don't even know why i signed up for this course. clearly the core subject is accounting, and i absolutely loathe it!

oh lord

bless my soul.

Of Course It Is

2009-12-20T16:57:00.000+08:00

2009 has been wonderful

highs and lows, thick and thin.

proudly say, i've been there done that, bitch! ;)

guitar hero @ ishnee's

ariff's 17th @ elhabenero

reunited :)

car mess

the old

@ alsafa

@ jaya one

my soulmates :)

ashtin :)

izman :)

somewhere in cyber :)

7eleven with azreen at 3am :)

futsal @ cyber

2012 with 26 others @ alamanda

in class with niloofar :)

retard :)

faritz :) otw back to cyber from alsafa

izman's 18th

liyana and naomi :)

SPM results :)

bean :)

@ mist with esther

@ maison

@ 7atenine, ascott

steph's 18th :)

i love you guys to death, i swear!

the awesome 3

@ jetty, ou

@ coco banana

somewhere in KL

@ the curve

@ mont kiara

new year 09 @ the curve

11th april

the loves of my life :)

izham adly mohd sofi :)

bless your soul.

This Is Not An Ad

2009-12-19T18:37:00.001+08:00

kym, ariff and esther :)

jyeaahh!

esther and matt :)

esty's performance at mardigras last thursday :)

i loved the medley boo!

btw pretty people;

esther richard / esty raphaelle richard

(or whatever name people call her now)

is my best friend of many years. damn she's talented in so many ways. i consider her my blood and i'd do anything for her. oh and sorry, she's engaged HAHA

listen to her song and vote for her!

*you can refresh the page and vote many many many times, it's free!*

http://www.voize.my/awards.php

Best College Act :)

bless your soul.